Finally the magnificent eyes turned to me and looked at me with all vigor. I was chanting the name of Sri Ramakrishna and was looking at them.
Finally the great guru heaved a sigh and opened his eyes and did namaskaar to me and others and got up.
Crisis!!! I couldnt get up! I was not able to sit down for long hours of time and my feet had gone to sleep. I got up with difficulty and my feet shivered and I was trying not to embarass myself by falling.
"It looks like you should not sit for long hours of time " remarked the Guru with a smile.
I nodded but I was at a loss to understand why my feet and back shivered soo much with weakness. I had never felt like that after sitting only for probably twenty minutes. I wondered whether it was an aftermath of the vision that Nanna had bestowed upon me.
The Guru slowly moved forward and said something that I dont remember. I also answered something that which I dont remember.
After that I made courage and asked him suddenly " Nanna what should one do to develop pure love for God?"
He did not hear me properly. Dr Usha told my question in his ears.
He smiled a wonderful smile and his lips quivered with ecstasy.
"That will take an hour long sermon Mithin " he said.
He looked again deeply into my eyes.
This is the test, I thought. Did he see my innermost desire?
He did.
For within seconds he uttered the most beautiful words in the Universe.
"Ramakrishna!" he said
"Ramakrishna said first God and then service..." he said "first it is always God, then only service. Repeat it" he told me.
"First God and then service" I said.
He smiled.
I said " Nanna you and Ramakrishna are the same."
He didnt hear properly.
Dr Usha told what I said into his ears.
A heavenly smile which shames the brilliance of a billion blue moons, a smile for which Goddess Uma mediatated in the groves of Arunachala, a smile for which yogis move about madly in the Himalayas chanting Rama rama,a smile for which Sita waited in the groves of Ashoka vanam, a smile for which Lord Hanuman jumps in restlessness from one tree to another, a smile which is the apple of the Heart for Lord Ganesa and Subramanya, a smile which made Vivekananda leave his house, hearth , kith and kin and roam aimlessly all over India...such a smile...a smile which is the fruit of a gazillion births of meditation and naama...such a smile, my friends, played on my guru's lips as he uttered the words that still ring in my ears
"Yes, Ramakrishna and I are One. We make a good match. Ramana, Buddha etc are highly intellectual and beyond the scope of simpletons like me. Ramakrishna though is easily accesible...so we make a good match." He smiled
This was said in a very humorous way and had all the people around in splits.
Nanna continued to smile...
I am sorry I have to end the note here.
A lot of conversation, mirth and joy transpired after this which I feel cannot be covered by my vocabulary.
Nanna talked about true love, Vivekananda , Adbhutananda and Guru's grace. He talked all of this standing and with his hand on my shoulder looking deeply into my eyes.
I swam in the Ocean of ecstasy...
I could write all that but my wretched mind is not worthy to describe Him and his beauty. I feel like banging my head against the wall because I have no power to describe the beauty of Nanna and his stunning words filled with laughter and joy that day.
I feel I a might end up painting a wrong picture of Him.
I would like to tell my friends that if you see something divine and beautiful in these experiences it is because of my guru only...all things wrong, boastful, egocentric and incomplete are due to me alone.
I am just a restless mind trying to paint the picture of No Mind All Heart...I always can go wrong! Please forgive me for any such.
Know this that his gist on that day was " Guru's grace...guru's grace will give all."
(Dr.Mithin Aachi is an orthopaedic surgeon by profession. He is a star-gazer, painter, and writer. He is an amalgamation of all kinds of arts and activities. He is a happy go lucky person, who just sees love in everything. From the very tender age, he had an quest to know the truth. He admires and worships Rama Krishna and believes Nannagaru is an avatar of Rama Krishna and worships him in this form. He is a simple person who is an embodiment of love.)
You were successful in describing the indescribable beauty of nannagaru’s smile
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