Love Itself Is The Actual Form Of God!

Bhagavan’s Assurance!
From then on, I no longer cared much for the world, but instead found my interest in Nannagaru and Bhagavan. I started to understand what illusion this world really is, and what a human’s role is in life. Then, one night, I had a dream, where Bhagavan came, and merely said that the world is not real and that I was to find out soon. I woke up in deep surprise, unsure of what to think of my dream, except that I now knew what my path was.
Trust in Guru is only Sadhana!

Then, I worked on a charcoal art piece and when it was finished, sent it to Nannagaru through my mom’s friend. I waited for a while and when I got the video of Nannagaru seeing the art, I just cried a lot for some reason. When Nannagaru asked who did it, people were explaining who did it, but just by my name he seemed to recognize me, even after I hadn’t been to India for 5 years! The smile he gave then was simply beautiful.
Guru’s First Glance!
Next, during Winter Break at school, we came to India, and met Nannagaru for the first time that I can remember. It was only for two days but was simply amazing. I can only say I saw him for about 15-20 minutes because I had to also watch my brother outside. But in those few minutes, he smiled at me in an unforgettable way.
Surrender To Me, I’ll Take Care Of You!
For 6th grade, I was starting Middle school so I went for a camp to prepare us and teach us what middle school would be like. One of the camp days, we were reseting our school network passwords and I was unsure what to change mine to. Then, the idea of using Arunachala as my network password came to me and I was happy with the password and awed at how quickly I got saved from not having a reset password.
Selfless Work!
One Look, One Touch, One Word!


Nanna Is Working!

The Outer Guru Is Saying That The Real Guru Is Within!
Later, in December, my mom went and came back from India without me, and saw Nannagaru. Then, on December 29th, I was sleeping, and my mom was trying to wake me up. Knowing that my mom never wakes me up by shaking me, I looked at her very confused. Then she broke the news of Nannagaru’s samadhi to me. I couldn’t help but cry. For some reason that day, I could not be myself. Whenever I got a chance, I’d look at the few pictures I had of him, hoping for assurance that he was still here.
Then, on an unexpected day in January, I got my assurance. I had a piano recital that day, and was very nervous. I had practiced the song I was playing and mastered it to the best of my ability. When I was in line to go up for my performance, for a minute second, a force overcame my body, and I just heard Nannagaru’s voice, “I am still here.” I didn’t know what to make of it, except that now I knew 100% that he is there with me. When I went to perform, I did make many mistakes, but I felt they didn’t matter that much since the main event for me was my assurance of Nannagaru’s presence.
Have Faith In Yourself!
Once, my school friend texted me a inappropriate message which was seen by my parents. They, like any other parents guarded me and corrected me to be careful. I, within myself struggled a lot thinking, “Is this something I really want Bhagavan?” and I slept thinking over it.

Nannagaru has changed my life in many ways, and has always shown me the way to go. He had given me the initiative towards art and math, and has warned me of what to expect in my teenage years. He is my best friend and my inspiration. He is an embodiment of love, compassion, and kindness and I believe that he is still here with us today, and will always be there for a tomorrow.
Very nice and great write up.Thanks for sharing, my best reagars to you.
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